There are days like this, I feel I am a loser and I failed many times, I was ignored many times, and rejected many times by some people. I'm pity for myself :(
Hopefully there are some people there who keep me strong specially God.
God is always there for me, and he will be. I sometimes get mad at myself. I always feel envious into some people who can do many things and unique things, that's why I'm trying hard to practice those things
so that I can make those things too. I know "ENVY" is one of the seven deadly sin but I am just a person who always commit this sin >.<
I am not perfect, but some people expects high from me, I fear their expectations... I fear that I'll let them down.
I fear that I can't do the things they want me to do. I am trying hard to live my life into my own, but there are times that I can't. I always have questions in my mind that I want answers,
so many WHY and WHAT..
so many HOW..
but a few are answered..
I am finding the real me,.. The real reason why I exist, The reason why I am here, Many many reasons..
There is this inquisitive mind that always react.
Now, I have two personality..the Positive and the Negative,
well at least the positive side is ruling before me. :)
"I AM NOT A FAILURE... I JUST DISCOVER A THOUSAND WAYS THAT DOESN'T WORK"